Normally, for the New Year, I come up with a word or two to sum up my intention for the year. I love resolutions and goals and to do lists. It feeds my inner need-to-achieve self. But. But, as 2015 comes to a close, I find myself reconsidering the tone this sets for my year. To spend the final moments of an amazing year by thinking of all the things I “should” do next year doesn’t feel quite right.

This New Year’s Eve, I feel like savoring my first year as a mother, my first year not doing 110% for my career, my first year of saying ‘no’ a lot. A year of 20-minute yoga practices, and then 90, and then 20 again. Of sleeping 2 hours or 8 in a night. Of total and utter un-predictability. Of awesome and complete love. Of huge fear.

As I look forward to 2016, my only thought is that I want to eliminate “should” from my vocabulary. No more guilt (even when I go months without updating my website! yikes!) and much more presence. Fear and wanting be damned!

Here is to not wasting a single second of 2016. Here is to presence.